"when you get your heart broken, lean into it."

"When you get your heart broken, lean into it."

No this is not a quote from Sheryl Sandberg's book Lean In. It is a quote from one of my interviews at the Madison Pride Parade, which I will share very soon. This is something that has really stuck with me. This concept of leaning in applies to every aspect of my road trip.

When your heart is broken your thoughts and actions are not always rational, and this includes my decision to pack up my car and drive around the country to speak with people about love, lust, & heartbreak. I am absolutely not saying I regret this decision, it is actually the best idea I've ever had, but it challenges my whole being on a daily basis. This is one time in my life I am grateful for being irrational.

One thing I didn't think about was how lonely it would be to drive for 3 months by myself [well duh]. I keep busy by listening to music, audio books, and podcasts. I have started recording thoughts that I can't write down while driving, and I sometime yell at the top of my lungs just for the fun of it. Even when I stop places where I know people, I often feel like that man who isolated himself in the woods for a couple of decades. It can be a very conflicting feeling of finally I have real humans to talk to and oh this takes some time to adjust to.

Everyday I am required to lean into this journey. It is only me, and there are moments where I worry, but it is mandatory to move past everything that is comfortable and familiar, and venture into the unknown. Leaning in allows me to get the most out of this experience.

Phoebe Axtman